Okay, I really have to say this. Life sucks. I can't stand it anymore. I have to rush home everyday to take care of my brother and in the end, its I that doesn't get any nice food or any taking care of. I eat leftovers everyday and occasionally, I don't eat lunch at all. My parents always promise to buy food home for me but it always ends up that I get my own lunch. I can't eat in school because I don't have that many free periods and if there are, it is usually too early for lunch and by the time I get home, I'll be hungry again. This is unfair. I prepare food for my brother, I make sure he's showered and happy and nice and clean. I shower late and if I do shower, I always get glared at by my brother's bus auntie because I go down late. This sucks like shit. I am bloody pissed off. And I haven't been getting enough sleep for this entire week and I wake up at 5.30am in the morning and usually, I have to drag myself out of the bed, telling myself that if I sleep in, I'll be late for school.
Anyway, on a cheerier note, my chinese tests came back today. I got 19/20 for the 非常阅读 test and 41/50 for the 语文测验. I think you already know that from one of my previous posts.
Have to go now before my brother's bus auntie and driver get angry at me again...
Okay, this sucks. Guess what? My brother's bus just came early at 3.15pm when it was supposed to come at 3.20pm and the lady sounded really angry on the phone when she called. I ran down and didn't dare to look at her in the eyes. Then, when I got home, I just broke down and cried so hard. I don't even know why!! This is so freaky!! I can't believe I just cried that hard. I look a mess now. Why does all this have to happen to me??
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Today, we recorded the talkshow. We were the first group to go so at least its over and done with. The experience was really cool and great! Awesome! Recording and hosting a talkshow is so fun!!
Super bloody pissed at so many things today. Won't mention what I'm pissed for but I have a good reason to be. Life is so unfair.
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Went to JP with Prisca yesterday. It was so cool! I met her at the entrance before she went to buy a present for Qingli. Won't tell you what it is. Its meant to be a surprise. After that, we went to Popular. I bought
3 highlighters there which is such a waste of money but because they looked so nice, I bought them. Besides, I so rarely ever spend money. I hardly even eat in school! Prisca managed to find the third book of Maximum Ride. We payed for our stuff before getting out. Walked into Harris for a while for the sake of going in. I was looking for a planner so Prisca told me to go to ArtBox, which we went to. And oh my gosh, the stuff sold in ArtBox is so nice!! I wish I could have them all! I found a really nice planner there that was just so pretty that I had to buy it. But of course, it was a tad too expensive. Will not disclose the price for fear you would get a heart attack.
After I bought my planner, we headed to Gramophone. I wanted to buy Hey Monday's album but unfortunately, it was
sold out. In the end, I bought Fall Out Boy's Folie a Deux which was bought at a steal for just $7.95. It used to be $11.90. And I wouldn't even dare to think about the cost when the album first came out. We wandered around aimlessly for another fifteen minutes, talking crap, before we caught the train home.
Altogether, a very nice shopping trip.
Got my math test back today. I managed to scrape a pathetic 24/25. But the one mark which I lost was a mark that everyone in the class couldn't obtain so 24 marks is the highest! We're going to have a math test tomorrow. It may or may not be counted so I have to study now.
Blog another time...
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Oh my gosh! I just watched the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince trailer on television and I can tell that this is going to be the
most spectacular Harry Potter movie ever!! I am so going to buy the VCD when it comes out!!
I really need to get myself a planner and a few music albums, especially Hey Monday's album!! They are so cool! I also need the Pilot Frixion highlighter because using a normal highlighter is too annoying to be true. When I make a mistake, I can't get rid of the mark.
I'm going out to Jurong Point with Prisca tomorrow. Hope to get my stuff then!
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I can't believe how tired I am these days. Sometimes, the fatigue just overwhelms me and pulls me under. Take yesterday as an example. I was doing my work when my head felt extremely heavy and I had a headache. My eyelids drooped and before you know it, I fell asleep at my desk, oblivious to my surroundings. The next moment, when I woke up, it was already 7pm and I slept at 6pm. Then, yesterday night, I was working on the math project until 11.30 before I went to sleep. This morning, I woke up at 8.30, bleary-eyed and tousled, unable to go back to sleep.
Honestly, I think its my sleeping pattern that is to blame. I sleep late and wake up early for no reason. No matter how late I sleep, I always get up at the latest, 9am. This is just crazy. I need my sleep! I keep falling asleep at my desk, and not very conspicously, but in school as well. I've been suffering from dark eye circles and tiredness. I can't stand it anymore.
Help!!
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This week has been rather mundane because...I don't know why but its just mundane.
Just finished the new storyboard. Saw Miss Cai today for that and she said she liked our perspective but some parts were irrelevant. So I've cut them out. Now, its just the allocation of the drawings that need to be done.
Also, my chinese composition was given out today. Its the one I got 60/70 for. It was read out in class and I felt so embarassed and weird. I hate having my stuff read out in front of a lot of people, not to mention a class.
ORCA period today was cool because while the normal chinese students were having class, we were in the library. I think its going to be permanent so that means, every Friday will be spent in the library from 11.10 to 12.00.
Have to do my work now. Bye...
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At long last, the talk show script is complete and we've run through it once. Although there are probably some slight changes to be made, overall, I think its great!
Everyone else in higher chinese class is in school now, decorating the HCL room. Its sad that I can't stay back with the rest:(
Got to go now. Nothing else to post about. By the way, I managed to leave early today and I took the same bus with Rachel:)
P.S. Listen to Hey Monday because they rock!
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Today was a rather productive day because:
1) Most of the talk show script is complete
2) I finally managed to grasp the concept of simplifying algebraic expressions
and
3) I
fell in love with Hey Monday!
During free period, I visited Valerie's blog and she posted a Youtube video of Hey Monday's How You Love Me Now. And I used my earphones and just loved the song! Its super awesome!! Then, I visited Youtube and listened to more Hey Monday songs!
Also, we were given time to do the UBD project so I wrote the script for myself (host) and Jodi (cleaner). Jodi can really put on hilarious accents so I hope I don't laugh when the real talk show is recorded next week. Everyone wrote their own scripts for their individual characters but I'm the only one who can have cue cards!! That's a good thing because I'm the host and all so I need to have a stack of papers or something like that on my lap during the show.
I watched "Bride Wars" yesterday. It was cool but the plot was kinda typical so I can't say it was brilliant but it was nice. Hope to watch "Inkheart" today!
Also, I need to do the script tonight so, I'm going to be busy. Plus, I put off doing my math assessments yesterday because I was lazy so I have to catch up today. Still have yet to compile my chinese oral notes.
Another time then....
I just signed up for the Chinese Challenge thing which is considered as homework even though its a national (or was it international?) competition. I feel a little uneasy now about signing up because the questions are hard. Anyway, I'll do it some other time.
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Today was another day in school as usual. PE sucked because the relief teacher forced us to play basketball when what we really wanted to play was Captain's Ball. Since I didn't know a single thing about basketball, I "went" to the girls toilet with Prisca before returning. When I came back, I played "Monkey" with Luisa, Claudia, Verine, Piao Lin, Teresa, Grace, Jessica and a few others. It was actually really fun. But I got hit by the basketball and I accidentally threw the ball at Rachel when she wasn't looking and it hit her head twice. Really sorry Rachel!
Math lesson was quite alright because Ms Ng showed us a couple of magic tricks and how they are linked to algebra. We're currently learning a new aspect of English in class. Something to do with human rights and all that. OSP Meet-the-Parents session is coming up on the 27th of April. Hope I don't get into any trouble.
One more thing: the English Informal Letter Writing test came back today and guess what, I got a pathetic 29/30 because Miss Sheena added one phrase to my sentence!!!!! One mark gone because of such a trivial thing!!!!! Damn it...
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Today is the most wonderful day in my entire life.
I'm sure all of you know my chinese sucks like hell but today, guess what? For the three chinese tests that I took for this term, I scored amazing marks for all of them!!
Here are the scores:
私函: 18/20
作文: 60/70
语文测验: 41/50
Unbelievable isn't it? I'm usually such a lousy student but I guess a miracle happened today!
Took the Geography test 4 this afternoon. It wasn't a tough paper but still, I hope I didn't screw it up.
Will post another time..
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After reading Sumiko Tan's piece in the newspaper about Facebook. it really set me thinking about my personal computer life.
Email and MSN are most certainly not contrabands, but blogs and Facebook? I don't have a Facebook account and never will but I have this blog, goodness knows what for.
When I started my blog, I was thrilled at the prospect of being able to customize it beautifully with pretty blogskins and adding widgets and music to it. Also, it was popular and naturally, I wanted to try it out for myself. Now, it has evolved into what you are seeing today.
But according to Sumiko Tan, we should value our private space, which is why she never would join Facebook. I realised then that my blog is sharing with people my daily life and its happenings. That most certainly isn't valuing my own private space, is it? Just look at the number of links on my blog. Even good students keep blogs and I thought, surely there's nothing wrong with having a blog, is there?
Of course, there are downfalls to keeping a blog. You spend precious time blogging and viewing other people's blogs, just to find out what they've been up to. You also have to rack your brains to try to come up with an interesting topic to blog about. Otherwise, your blog could well be on its way to being awarded the title of "Most Boring Blog". If you do not update for a period of time, you blog is branded as "dead" and occasionally, you will be pestered by your friends to "just write something".
To me, the notion of customizing a blog is appealing and made me want to have one in the first place. But surely you could do the same thing with a normal notebook which you can grandly refer to as a "diary"? Except, you'll have no widgets or music. Which was what turned me off the idea. But the fact that almost anyone can view your blog is not a good thing. You can't write freely about your likes and dislikes for fear if offending someone. I've read blogs in which people try to make themselves seem smarter, more fluent, sportier, cooler and more popular than they really are.
And by reading other people's blogs, you're actually feeding your voyeuristic spirit. Same goes for Facebook. And other social networking sites. Its not that its wrong to have Facebook accounts but maybe, its a little weird to display your personal life in such a way.
Ultimately, its up to you what you wish and do not wish to do on the Internet. After all, isn't life all about choices?
p.s. I'm currently in a dilemma as to whether I should continue blogging or not.
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Just came home from tuition class. Today was another chinese test so I am having such a bad time. There are just so many tests to sit for that my brain is going to burst sooner or later. But at least, I know I didn't screw up today's test so I suppose I'm safe.
Finished carrying up the groceries. They are so darn heavy!! My arms are aching like mad now and my brother is giving me a headache because he's in the shower and I'm too tired to watch over him.
I will be studying for the Geography test on Monday and the Science test as well for the rest of the weekend so most likely, I won't be posting.
Got to go now...till next time...
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I totally think I screwed up today's 语文测验. I already have one mark gone and I'm pretty sure I didn't answer the comprehension questions correctly. Anyway, its already over so no point brooding over it.
Had choir photo-taking today. Really pissed off at the photographer because:
1) He separated Prisca and I
2) He made me stand all the way at the end of a long line of boys in the top row.
Its was so awkward, one small girl all the way at the end of a row of tall secondary 3, 4 boys.
So annoying...and everyone was like, staring at me.
Super pissed...
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Had the math test on ratio, rate and statistics today. It was rather easy but with someone like me, "easy" can become "difficult" so I hope I didn't screw this test up. Otherwise, my overall grades will be ruined
forever. Which of course, I wouldn't want to happen. The big geography test is next week and the science test which was scheduled for tomorrow has been postponed to next monday. So Monday is going to be really stressful, also taking into consideration the fact that there are no free periods on Monday. But if we are dismissed late from assembly, the test will be postponed again, I think. So, hope there's an attire check on next Monday so we don't have to take the test. Must study really hard this weekend though. Meaning I can't go out...
Today, during last period Science, Jodi was using a super hilarious accent and talking nonsense. She said that Rachel's and Jessica's glasses were "dowdy" and when Mr Firhad came over, she said that Rachel and Jessica said that
his glasses were dowdy. I wanted to accuse her but I was laughing too hard to say anything comprehensible, so I didn't succeed in the end. But she was really very funny! I was debating with her but I didn't manage to rebutt her because I was laughing too hard. I swear, I've never laughed so much in a very long time. I guess today wasn't so bad after all.
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I just woke up and I feel awful. My voice sounds weird and my limbs are aching
everywhere. *sigh**sigh*
I'm going out to Jurong Point later on if I can even walk properly because when I scrambled out of bed today, I was limping. I want to watch "Confessions of a Shopaholic" and my mum agreed to take me out before she left to buy breakfast. I also want to get my 'B' version of my science guide book as well as Fall Out Boy's "Folie a Deux" and Carrie Underwood's "Carnival Ride"!! The songs inside are so nice! And Fall Out Boy rocks! Unfortunately, if I want CDs, I have to buy them with my own money. But at least Folie a Deux is on sale at $11.90 but I don't think Carnival Ride is. By the way, those will be my first two CDs!! Of my own!! So excited! Should I buy Taylor Swift at the same time? But I already have all her songs though...nevermind, I shouldn't waste money like that.
Got to go..
Nooooo...I'm not going to Jurong Point after all. My mum went out to some place in the East of Singapore with my dad and brothers. She tried to make up for it by promising to go out tomorrow but well, being the petty person I am, I refused to give in. I just checked the cinema schedule and there's a movie tomorrow at 12.35pm and 3.00pm but I can't watch those because I have tuition tomorrow so the only available show for me is the 1.25 pm show on Sunday. But I don't think I can watch it either because my parents will want to go out for lunch and my brothers eat at the speed of a snail so if I really want to watch the show, I'll have to see if Yunxi is available. Before my mum left, she tried calling up my aunt to see if she has the DVD but she doesn't so she tried to talk me into coming with the rest of the family to go out but because I was feeling rather emo after she said she couldn't watch the movie with me and was going to go with my siblings instead, I frowned and acted like some small kid and said,"No, I don't want to go out with you people." I know my mum feels hurt and all but I also feel angry and disappointed. But I know I shouldn't have treated her like that. I have a feeling that she isn't going to allow me to buy my CDs anymore, even though I haven't told her I was planning to buy them. Life can be so unfair. Anyway, I finished most of my homework already so that's good, I guess..
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Okay..I haven't been updating for some time now. Had NAPFA five stations yesterday. I think this has to be the best NAPFA I have ever done!
Here are my results:
Standing Broad Jump-168cm
Sit-and-Reach-44.5cm
Inclined Pull-ups-15
Sit-ups-34
Shuttle Run-11.81 (seconds?)
Today is the 2.4km run. Hope I get at least a C. Then I'll get my NAPFA gold!!
Doing KooBits now...boring...
Okay, I am officially a FIT and HEALTHY person!! I managed to do my 2.4km run in 16 minutes and 10 seconds!! Isn't that cool? I mean, I usually take 20 minutes during normal practices! When we started out, I ran quite a distance, then I couldn't take it anymore because of my aching legs and I walked. Jeelian and I walked for some time, before we started running again. Then, super damn tired again and I walked. This went on for quite some time before I asked Jeelian how much time had passed and she said "3 minutes to fail!" and right then and there, I sprinted all the way to the finishing line! And I made it! I got a C grade and that equals a NAPFA GOLD!! Can you actually believe I'm so healthy and fit that I managed to get a
GOLD for NAPFA??? I'm a GENIUS!!
There's a lot of homework for the Easter holidays and I have five tests next week..*sigh*. Sometimes, I really hate secondary school life. Everything seems to be part of our final grades!
One more thing: My arms, legs, back, shoulders and head is aching now!! It hurts so much that I have to grit my teeth and clamp my lips together to keep from screaming because it hurts so much!! Seriously, it really does hurt. It started out on Tuesday this week during PE practice for the five stations. I did way too many standing broad jumps and I forced myself to do 3 pathetic inclined pull-ups and I was rewarded with aching and over-stretched muscles. Then, yesterday, before NAPFA, I was super nervous and I tried doing a proper standing broad jump and I could barely even cross the 150cm mark! So, I practiced and practiced and I ached terribly after that. But still, I did well:) This morning, when I woke up, I couldn't find the energy to sit up because my stomach muscles and my leg muscles and all my muscles hurt so badly! Throughout the course of the entire day, I had to control myself for fear I would scream out loud due to the pain I felt each time I climbed the stairs, or just merely stood up or sat down, or even walking. Its that bad...I was practically freaking out before the 2.4km run. Thank goodness I passed! But, well, nothing comes without a price right? So, I got my desired results but had to pay with my overall flexibility.
Anyway, hope I do get my gold because I'm afraid I might have calculated my results wrongly even though all my grades are nothing less than a 'C'.
Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I haven't updated on the field trip! The trip was quite alright. We boarded the bus and travelled a long, long distance to Sungei Serangoon. There, Rachel and I took notes about the river and filled up the worksheet. Jessica tested the ph of the river water and we completed the section on the river. Then, boarded the bus again, went to the Kallang River just opposite the old NDP stadium. Again, did the same things all over again. Lent my worksheet to Rachel and Jessica when we got on the bus to get back to school. That reminds me, I wonder if Verine and Jodi have copied down the notes we took. Nevermind...
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Eww...I just ate fish maw for dinner. Its disgusting! So slimy and jellyish! Yuck! Looks like I haven't updated my blog for a few days now. But there's nothing to blog about.
Anais lent me Maximum Ride: Saving the world and other extreme sports as well as Taylor Swift's latest album "Fearless"!! Thanks so much Anais! You rock!!
Going for a field trip tomorrow to two rivers in Singapore. I'm the note-taker in the group so well, I don't think the trip is going to be fun...
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I can't believe it! I'm actually stuck at home, looking after my brother, whilst everyone else is at the volleyball game!! At 1pm today, we were, or rather, everyone else was released for lunch and I didn't want to be left in class, mooching around so I followed. I was super hungry but I didn't want to waste money because I thought there would be food at home but
NO, there isn't any food right now. I have to cook instant noodles which I am sick of. And I have to grill some nuggets and stuff for my brother and myself. It sucks! So, when everyone was assembled in the class, some teacher came in and informed everyone that they would be going to watch the volleyball match, and that they had to be on their best behaviour, blah, blah, blah. The student leaders came in after her speech and organized everyone else outside. At that moment, I kinda regretted not going with them. My mum said she could have escaped from the office yesterday to come home but I didn't wish to put her to so much trouble because she took my brother to the dentist this morning and didn't go to work so its unfair to have to put her through this trouble. But I felt really sad when I saw all my classmates going off and leaving me alone in the class with Samuel, Zhiyong and Max. Not that they disturb me or anything but they're really noisy and they were playing "Wolfteam" on their laptops. I did my work and when Samuel saw me, he said to me, "Eh, Jayne, don't be guai kia lah! Don't show off in front of the people outside!"
I AM NOT SHOWING OFF!! Its because I have nothing better to do than homework! I wasn't showing off!! Even after everyone left, I was still doing my work wasn't I?
Got to go prepare lunch and get ready to pick my brother up now...blog some other time...
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Okay, nothing much to post about today. Sec 1s have to go to support and cheer the volleyball C boys tomorrow. But as expected, I'm not going because I'm kinda bonded to come back home to take care of my brothers. Anyway, have fun everyone else!
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Tired....
Thursday, April 30, 2009