‘‘because tonight will be the night that i fall for you’’
Prologue
the girl next door
I could go back to every laugh,
But I don't wanna go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don't wanna go there anymore.
I’ll leave my window open,
Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hoping,
That you’ll come in with the rain.
Jayne, 13, FMS(S) 1E 2009
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Wishlist
wish upon a shooting star
Movies
▪ Watch Twilight
▪ Watch Transformers 2
▪ Watch Hannah Montana The Movie
▪ Watch The Time Traveler's Wife
▪ Watch My Sister's Keeper
▪ Watch 2012
▪ Watch New Moon
▪ Watch Dear John
▪ Watch The Last Song
▪ Watch Valentine's Day
▪ Watch Eclipse
▪ Watch Ramona and Beezus
Birthdays
▪ the 13th birthday
▪ the 14th birthday
Grades
▪ Good grades (Term 1)
▪ Good grades (Term 2)
▪ Good grades (Term 3)
▪ Good grades (Term 4)
▪ Pass Grade 5 Theory
Material Goods
▪ iPhone
▪ Apple iPod Nano
▪ CDs
▪ New pencilcase
▪ New wallet
▪ New clothes
▪ FBTs
▪ New watch
▪ New School shoes (Converse)
▪ MacBook
Performed for the Thanksgiving service just now. It was quite okay. But my feet were super painful because my shoes were rather tight at the toes. By the way, before warm-ups, I realised that I had forgotten to post my dad's letters, so I gave Mr Ho the excuse that I was going to the toilet and ran out and across the road and back in 3 minutes! Can you believe it? I'm usually super slow at running and I have absolutely no stamina at all. Prisca went with me. It was fun! Running that fast gives you quite a thrill.
My dad picked me up from school. He brought me to McCafe and I bought my double chocolate frappe from there! Yum! There were oreo cookie bits in it. But I still prefer Starbucks.
Had a art test today. I didn't study so I screwed it up as usual. I wrote some shit on the different art periods and definitions. Anyway, who cares?
Got to go study for tomorrow's chinese tuition test now. And complete my homework. And all the assessments and papers that I have assigned myself to do.
My mum bought me a new Nike bag yesterday. Its khaki-coloured with orange stripes on the zippers. I must admit, when I first saw it, I didn't really like the colours. But I don't mind so much now. But it looks like feng an's bag. Anyway, who cares. I'll switch back to my old bag soon. I love my old bag because its more unique. And it wasn't bought in Singapore, making it more exclusive.
Mr Firhad's giving us free time now so that is why I'm blogging. Learnt about osmosis and diffusion today. Quite dry, but at least I can understand it. Hand aches from frantically writing down notes. I'll have to go home and read up more in my science guidebook and complete the chapter on it in my assessment book. Sigh...such are the times.
Screwed my si han test today. I wrote so much crap about H1N1 that I'll get zero for it. I've screwed up all my tests this term. Better not screw up my exams. Otherwise, I'll kill myself. Because its 55% and not just 15% anymore. Its really important.
Can't wait to get back my tests, even though I know my scores will be really low. But at least I'll know what to expect.
The choir performance is tomorrow. I might probably go home first, then go to Prisca's house to laze around before returning to school. Have to wear my silver shoes and dress. Argh!
Ms Ng finally treated us to ice-cream today! It wasn't really ice-cream but it was Paddle Pop Hip-Hop Jelly. Super delicious! Feng An was being funny with his ice-cream, making it all floppy and stuff. Laughed really hard. I think Ms Cai was kind of mad. But nevermind. My silver flats from Cotton On.
Here are my bags. Argh. Can't decide which one is nicer.
Had choir practice yesterday. It was quite freaky because Ms Cai was there in the hall. But we only practiced three times before they allowed us to slack all the way until 4.45. Got disturbed by Lorraine, Katelyn and Prisca. They were pulling out people's shoelaces and stuff like that. And we were playing scissors-paper-stone and slapping the loser's hand. My hand was slapped super hard by Lorraine! Super red after that.
My parents managed to buy me my silver flats from Cotton On. I hate flats. I prefer heels. But the shoes from Cotton On won't last very long because its like cardboard, so I will buy a nice pair of heels after the performance.
I'm in art class now. I'm sick of shading and drawing so decided to sneak a post. The boys are playing Wolfteam so why can't I blog, right? I've resorted to blogging in school nowadays thanks to the fact that I have absolutely no time at all at home. Been studying really hard these few days. Doing loads of assessments and test papers. On top of homework and my house chores. But I did manage to check my Facebook account yesterday because my mum said that I should take a break. But after that, it goes right back to studying. Sigh...
I can't wait for EOYs to be over. I wish it were over. But there's still one and a half months to go. And after exams, there will be loads of choir practices. So life's going to be hectic. But I did promise myself I could watch as much drama serials online as I want. So that will be cool. And I hope I do well. So that I can go on a major shopping spree with Prisca and my dad will get me my iPhone!
Screwed every single test last week, especially science, zuo wen and history. I didn't remember to write 0 CE for the timeline and science was tough. I barely studied for zuo wen and I'm pretty sure I wrote tons of crap. Whatever came to my mind, I just put down on the paper. My results are going to be so bad. But its over, there's no point moaning over it. Also, I blame Mr Chan for my dazed-ness.
Went to JP with Prisca yesterday to buy choir shoes. Unfortunately, didn't manage to buy any. Because none of the shoe shops had my size! How frustrating. When we were going to Starbucks, we passed by this shop called Gripz. And I spotted a really nice pair of silver heels inside that fitted the requirements perfectly. So we waited for more than 10 minutes for the store to open but in the end, Prisca bought the shoes because it was the only pair left. Argh! Mr Ho is so going to kill me when they do an attire check. But I don't care anymore. I have better things to worry about. At least I managed to drink my chocolate chip frappe yesterday. But couldn't watch Harry Potter with Rachel, Claudia, Jessica and Teresa on Saturday. Super suckish. I have been waiting for that movie outing for so long and then suddenly, my mum says I can't go. Shan't elaborate.
Haven't finished my history homework yet. Because I left my workbook in school. Have to chiong today. And I was too lazy to finish my art. So I have to do it today. I'm becoming such a procrastinator. My dad bought me a large stack of SA2 test papers. Planned out my schedule in my trusty planner yesterday. Won't be able to go online very often these days because of the amount of work that I have to catch up with. I want to complete my assessment books and test papers by the end of August. Then, before EOYs in September, I'll do intensive revision.
Also, if I do well for EOYs, my dad promised to buy me an iPhone. Then I promised myself, I would buy my FBTs and Daughtry's new CD!! Daughtry's new CD rocks! EVERY single song is just plain AWESOME! Did I mention that Demi Lovato's Here We Go Again is out as well? And Jordin Spark's Battlefield as well? So cool! Okay, I'm rambling on and on about music. But seriously, Daughtry's album is just amazing.
On Saturday, I went for YF. Didn't manage to escape this time. But the speaker, Jack Sin, was super good. Easy message on charismatism. Feel that I understand more now. So I guess it did do me some good after all. But I'm not going back anymore. Its way too awkward.
The only purpose of life is to seriously piss me off. I totally screwed the math test today. I already have 3 marks gone! How stupid can I be? School nowadays really piss me off. I hate going to school. I hate my seating position. I hate EVERYTHING!
The only good thing that happened today was that I got 46/50 for my yu wen ce yan. So I guess I didn't screw that test up afterall. But what is that compared to my math test?
Really angry right now. First was my screwed-up math test, then my laptop lagged. How much does life want to make me angry? Apparently, a lot.
Choir yesterday was boring. Sectionals as usual, sucked. Learnt some new song for Founder's Day (4 August). Was slacking during sectionals. Sat on the table and stuff like that. I hate choir. I should have joined netball when I got the chance. Or maybe squash, but I didn't go for the second trial thanks to choir trials >.<
I WANT TO GO SHOPPING! By the way, Harry Potter movie outing has been postponed to Saturday. I want to buy FBTs. And I also need to buy my silver heels for choir performance. I'm thinking of calling in sick that day, but of course, after I collect my $20 book voucher from the primary school xD
For the past few days, its been rather intensive. Revising all the subjects, learning spelling, etc., etc. Especially math. Been doing lots of math papers. But its quite annoying when the answer key's answer is different from the paper itself because apparently, they printed wrong numbers in the questions, thus causing me to not be able to solve it and getting the question wrong. Managed to file all my math worksheets. Planning to revise that tonight. My science and chinese revision has been rather light so I need to do the heavy stuff another time. So I can't watch Harry Potter tonight. But this coming Tuesday is Movie Day! Going to watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince! Can't wait! But tomorrow, CCA starts again. Sigh. Sectionals suck.
I managed to find a website which I'll bet Ms Yeow got her art worksheet from. She actually gave us this really annoying art history worksheet to complete but guess what? I found all the answers online because she took the worksheet from the internet! Muahaha.
Really want to go shopping soon. I haven't gone for ages. And its the sale period, albeit quite late already. But I still want to go. My mum went for the entire day yesterday. And I had to stay at home studying, and go to chinese tuition. >.<
Today pretty much sucked because I was emo-ing and had absolutely no idea why. I was late for school this morning. Super pissed about it because it wasn't my bloody fault. Anyway, don't want to talk about it. I got booked of course :( Hope they'll renew my record next year like they did my CMF booking for having long nails in semester 1. Feng An was disturbing me today. Really wish he'll just get H1N1 and stay home. Ignored him anyway :)
On a cheerier note, going to watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince next tuesday. But I have to go for YF and chinese tuition tomorrow >.< I hate YF. Its not that the youths in church have a problem or anything, I guess its just me that feels super duper awkward whenever I have to participate in anything related to church and them. However, my mum said that the speaker for tomorrow's message is really good so I guess I'll go. But I'll be hating it all the way. Chinese tuition is boring. Especially when you're sitting at the back. Really wish to change seats with Feng An in class. Sitting at the back sucks. I prefer the front. Might consider talking to Ms Cai about it.
These days, I've been spending my time studying in the afternoon, going online to check my facebook and email in the evening, studying some more at night, then sleeping really late. Its tiring. I keep having a feeling that I'm not studying effectively enough. And that I've been spending way too much time on the internet. Another note to my exhausted brain: I need to stock up on pens and correction tape refills. By the way, Katy Perry's on the cover of the July issue of Seventeen! Gonna buy after school today. I like turning the shiny pages of magazines and looking at the bright pictures. Haha.
Currently in art class, trying my best to find out more about Simone Martini's Madonna and Child painting. How boring can class get? I like the practical sessions but doing research is just damn frustrating. Can't find the stylistic characteristics for the painting.
Youtube-ing more and more these days. Its nice to listen to songs. Facebook is beginning to get boring, especially when I'm not allowed to play the games. But I managed to play Biotronic, Pixel Ranger and Typing Maniac yesterday. But of course, I got scolded.
Had the yu wen ce yan yesterday and I officially screwed it up big-time. I already have one mark gone! Argh! And that is the section that I shouldn't ever ever lose marks for. Oh yeah, cheer up about the test Prisca! I'm sure you did just fine! Let's all screw this test up together!
More updates in point form, because I'm much too lazy to post properly:
1) Feng An and Alan were being super annoying today. Hate them. 2) Lessons were...the usual 3) Seriously need to stock up on pens and correction tape refills 4) Can finally return "Max" to Anais tomorrow
Updates: (I'm too busy and lazy to go into details)
1) No mass run today! But there were gay exercises >.< 2) ORCA period is useless. They should abolish it and convert it into a free period. 3) Staying back tomorrow to finish up the CCITP Dreamweaver assignment. 4) Next tuesday, a date with Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince after school! 5) Loads of chinese revision to do today. Major test tomorrow. Currently just taking a break from studying. Been memorising loads of chinese idioms and proverbs and phrases. Looked through my chinese file and notebook. And my textbook. Perpetually stressed. 6) Found a new way to travel! Take bus 74 and go to Dover MRT. Then, hop on the train and go to Clementi. Smart, easy and less time-consuming :) 7) I don't want CCA to start again next week :( 8) I feel...I MUST WORK HARDER!! 9) I feel...I MUST REFER TO MY PLANNER MORE OFTEN, INSTEAD OF MY SCHOOL DIARY.
HCL class today was super damn funny, thanks to Prisca's "fei fei fei" talk and just about everyone's crap. Chinese spelling was damn hilarious because everyone was like, copying from my book and Prisca copied wrongly. Then, naturally, Luisa and Julian would be wrong as well. So too bad. Haha. Don't mind me, I'm a total sadist. When Jeelian's book was showed on the screen, it was so funny that the entire class laughed like crazy people. Because apparently, Jeelian wrote so many words wrongly that it made her sentences look weird. In the end, I got two words wrong, Julian failed (I think) and Luisa and Prisca got some stuff wrong as well. I think zeng lao shi knew that the entire table was cheating because she mentioned something about zuo bi and she looked at our table. So quite obviously, she knew but just didn't want to say anything.
PE was torture because we played mini tennis which was sickening. I couldn't hit the damn ball. And whenever it was my turn to serve, I kept hitting Alan. But anyway, who cares? Also, stupid Feng An was disturbing me again today. Why doesn't he just get H1N1 and stay home? He's so annoying.
History was boring. Mr Loke gave us worksheets to do and just about everyone was dozing off. Really boring. But after everything, he showed us a couple of youtube videos on Michael Jackson, since he's dead and considered history.
And speaking of youtube, I've been facebooking less nowadays and youtube-ing more. Here's a couple of videos: