Okay, I just realised I haven’t been updating for a long time. So far, life’s been rather unpredictable and disappointing at times. I got sick on Monday and went back to school on Wednesday. And I didn’t manage to mug as hard as I wanted to this entire week which is a major thing, because EOYs are next friday. So, I’ll have to make up for it by rushing out my revision this week. How stressful. I’m panicking like crazy and I can’t suppress the feeling that I’m going to do badly.
I also got caught for not wearing my camisole on friday. Its totally unfair because so many other people in our class didn’t wear theirs and only Verine and I got caught. Honestly, what is the school’s problem? And I didn’t manage to take my history test on friday as well because I had to rush off for the interview thing. Home Ecs was extremely un-enjoyable though the hokkien mee Camille cooked was nice. And the interview was just stupid because I didn’t even need to get interviewed and they didn’t allow me to wear my school uniform to take the passport photo. So I had to wear this ugly-looking scarf which the photo-taking lady lent me, over my uniform. My mum kept laughing and I was super pissed by the time it was over. I didn’t bother to say thank you to the lady even though I wanted to because I was just so dang pissed. And later, my mum scolded me. What is wrong with the world? I forgot to bring my EZ-Link card as well so my mum scolded me again. Then, she told my dad, and I got scolded, AGAIN. I had to control and restrain myself the whole of yesterday by pretending to be cheerful when I got scolded. Otherwise, I would have blowm my top in front of my parents and probably get slapped. Don’t ever want to risk that happening.
Just this morning, I was telling my mum how hard it was to study on Saturdays and since I mentioned my tuition in a moment of folly, she scolded and nagged at me the whole morning. Really glad she’s out of the house now. Don’t think I’ll be able to stand it anymore. She finds every opportunity to scold me nowadays. Must be menopause. She scolded me about my piano and ballet, which I gave up. Sigh. I want to pick up piano again but its so hard to find a teacher and I really don’t have the time and motivation right now, especially since EOYs are a major stress-maker. I’ve been praying a little more this week, but sometimes, its just so hard. I know I’m not a strong Christian. But I want to be. I want to find the peace that praying gives so many people.
Anyway, got to study now. Hope to do loads of revision this week, and FAST.
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tentative timeframes, stressful periods, hot tempers
Saturday, October 3, 2009